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Testimonies -
Susie P.
Received 5/29/07
Hi Doug,
I was a member of
Pleasant Valley Baptist Church (Liberty, Missouri) from
1995-2005. I can say that during that time I believed in God
and had accepted Christ as my lord and savior but I hadn't ever
completely surrendered and I finally had turned away from God
altogether. All those years at church and I still felt lost and
I wasnt being show the answers at church. I was dying inside
and no one knew or cared at church.
Up until about 6
months ago my life had become a total disaster. I was so
physically sick and full of disease. I was sad and depressed
sometimes not even able to leave the house because I couldn't stand
to be around and among other people. I had a job I hated and
was just barely able to keep. I had one failed marriage and my
second was in the process of failing. I was so lost and in so
much pain I was making final arrangements to end my life. This
wasn't the first time I had tried or planned to end it, but this time
I meant to accomplish it for real not just as a cry for
attention or help. The only thing that stopped me was
God. He showed me I had to turn back to him and he would
fix it all.
I was sent to this
website "Fellowship of the Martyrs." I didn't know
this person, but it turned out I had gone to church for a long time
with this family but didn't know it. God used this website to
open my eyes and to explain so many things to me. Thru this
website I found God's truth as I had never known it before. I
developed a hunger and a fire burning inside me. I didn't
understand why all those years at church I hadn't learned all these
things. I wanted to have the same relationship with God as this
person of this website had with God. I never knew it was
possible to walk so closely with God and have him direct your every step.
I contacted Doug
and read his books and God started showing me so many things.
All the layers of junk in my life just fell away. I knew why
God had saved me from killing myself. And why I was the way I
was and that I had a purpose and all the mistakes I had made
would be used to help other people and used for God's purposes.
That he had made me exactly as I was to serve him and now I'm
grateful for how he made me instead of thinking I must have been a mistake.
My life has
completely changed - absolutely every part of it. I love life
now because I have a purpose. Everything makes sense now.
All my depression has gone away. My marriage is healing and
growing. My body has been healed of almost all disease.
My job has a purpose and meaning now. But most of all, I have a
realtionship with God that I never imagined was possible. I
completely surrendered to him. I said here I am, I have made a
mess of things, please help me and fix it and he did. I said do
as you will with me, I know that without you I'm totally lost - I
trust you. My life has one purpose now to love God and put him
first above all things and to pray and do exactly as he shows me at
all times. He is in control, not me. My life is
full of so much love and joy and peace now. God has
filled me with so much love and passion for his purpose and glory and
kingdom. I am at so much peace knowing that God is in control
and that I will spend eternity with him.
This last 6 months
has been a hard journey to get me to this point. A very difficult and
painful time to peel back all the layers of sinful behavior and shed
all the old skin and get rid of all the strongholds. During
this time I have had so many questions. God showed me the
answers in scripture and thru prayer but also allowed me to
email Doug and ask him questions about his walk with God and about
the information God had shown him to write in books. My
question was always, I see how close you walk with God - how have you
gotten to this and what do I need to do to have this deep intensely
person one-on-one real relationship with God. I can honestly
say that God used Doug and his website to save my life.
I am now on my
own amazing journey with God. I am so very grateful for
my brother in Christ - Doug. I have seen so many, many, many
other lives that God has changed and touched thru Doug. Because
he has been obedient and done as God has shown him to do even though
it has cost him so very much - my life was saved and changed and is
now glorious.
I give God all the
glory and honor and praise for all these things.
Susie P.
Kansas City, Missouri
www.fellowshipofthemartyrs.com |
